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April 29th, 2008
 | 09:01 am - Hodgepodge
origami Tudor rose
My dad makes me watch The Tudors every time I visit because he knows how enthralling I find history and I have to say, it's very compellingly written. Very soapy.
Nightmares all weekend, kicked off by a close encounter of the creepy crawly kind (carefully documented according to stringent rules of honesty in soliefriends.) You may recall some previous bug-bearing, garden of death stories from my blog.
( and then there's last night (Greg, triggering) )
Oh, and I sent my ipod off. I'm apparently an addict because I've wanted it nearly from the moment I sent it away.
Massage last night. Ouch. Apparently when you relax every muscle in your body for the first time in awhile, it only serves to point out how much you really hurt.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/sick.gif) sick
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April 24th, 2008
 | 09:04 am - Shall Jonathan, who has accomplished this great victory in Israel, die? G-d forbid!
( Dream of doppleGreg )
Scott sent me a pair of buttons. I'll catch a picture of myself wearing one of them. Hoppie swiped the other one. It says, "Paying it forward since 1995." I'm very keen on it. Speaking of buttons and pins, this has been my week for them. I got a Derby pin while I was in town and...(oooh, segway time!)
I heard this rendition of Chad Gad Ya (Had Gadya) on Chaggigah. It's beautiful. The mp3 link is about 2/3rds the way down the page. Look for Chava Albertstein. There was a kickass "Echod Mi Yodeah" too.
( Maker's Mark )
My local Curves in Kentucky (which everyone is quick to point out is not my local Curves as many more have sprung up) has a stretching machine. That think is awesome. The stretching from that is incredible. Good enforced positions.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/smile.gif) accomplished
Current Music: Styx "The Best of Times"
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April 1st, 2008
 | 09:33 am - Asher and other things
While you're all playing your pranks on each other, I'm thinking of my nephew who is 2 years old today. Happy Birthday, Smasher.
( Also dreams )
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/snore.gif) tired
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March 28th, 2008
| 08:32 am - Dreams from a few nights
( Cousins yesterday and cousins today )
[Bad username: Memorial service dream]
It was another memorial service, but the pastor had to step out for a minute. During that time, a live-action spammer made his sales pitch, which normally would have come after the service instead of during. That's all I remember.
[Bad username: Medium dreams and spoilers from this week's episode]
We watched this week's Medium last night. In the dream, the daughter wasn't Angelica Houston's but Arquette's (and Dr. Matt, who damnit, didn't appear in the dream. Only Allison.) She was a ghost made manifest at the age she was killed. Something about the dream or knowing that she was dead brought her back to life. It wasn't clear how long she would be around, but Allison acted as if it could be either minutes of the rest of her life. She didn't realize that the villain of the show was a villain yet, and still trusted her. So when she came over with a boy dressed as knight and invited her out to play, she went. She felt it would be good to have someone who understood, instead of, like the people at school, people who just looked at her strangely and didn't understand what she'd been through.
Meanwhile, it was gradually dawning on Allison that things didn't add up. She went outside and found her daughter screaming and terrified as she was being pushed down a hill by the boy (not in the knight's outfit anymore) and the "friend" who were laughing at her terror. Then something happend that I don't remember and then I woke up. Actually feeling like I'd gotten a good night's rest.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/working.gif) busy
Current Music: Zorro
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February 28th, 2008
 | 10:45 am - Derek Jeter?
( Derek and the bet (dream) )
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Q4 Conference call
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February 25th, 2008
 | 08:57 am - Late night. Long day. Doesn't make much difference to me anyway.
( Every minute of every waking hour )
I keep trying to get over my disbelief. My mind utterly rejects it. When is it going to hit 5:00 without me expecting the phone to ring?
Maybe the universe is trying to protect me from Scott's, um, remarks. I can't read them without crying. What would happen if I'd actually heard them? I'm not happy with the world right now.
I'm at my max user icon limit! Wow.
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Big Country "In a Big Country"
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February 18th, 2008
 | 10:33 am - Jumbled concepts
Lots of dreaming last night. Lots of cameos.
( Name dropping, very little content )
We probably could have crashed the filk circle. We look enough like filkers that we were able to wander around the con untouched and unchallenged, but that was Saturday and we were walking around consuite and the dealer's room (looking for Ellen to help us find Maya...boy was there an idea that failed!) so maybe it won't be a forever boycott. The con looked really neat, and from what Maya and Faeryn said, it was pretty neat.
I found an earring on the steps to the basement of my house. It's very pretty, a puff silver heart moulded to look as if it's wire wrapped. I don't think I've ever seen it before. I don't know how it got on my basement steps. If anyone does know, please drop me a line and I'll return it. It's not hoppie's mistress' because Hoppie can't bring his girlfriends back here because I'm so unpredictable in my scheduling. (I'm just saying this pre-emptively. AFAIK, Hoppie's not scouting around for a second girl, he had enough trouble balancing life with the one he married...or so he'd like me to believe.)
I've got another case of the "buy me"s. Stressful couple of weeks.
( natural process cut )
Current Mood: busy
Current Music: Elvis Costello - "Everyday I Write the Book"
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February 7th, 2008
 | 09:30 am - Tell me, have you got the look?
( Girl vs Girl in the world series of friendship )
So yesterday I picked up stuff from other people to bring to VA. I think it will all fit in the suitcase I packed yesterday leaving just the one item that will need to go into a different suitcase. It's my feeling that I'll be able to bring the one large suitcase for Maya and one small weekender for me and Hop. We'll see how it goes.
I printed out my TripTik's with my directions to and fro different places diced and sliced. It doesn't account for how we get to Robin, if we get to Robin, but hopefully I'll get some more information from her. It's a long shot that we'd see her, but I try not to discount any possibilities.
Travel anxiety is starting to set in, but I'm trying to quash it under a flood of tasks to do.
Last night I was talking about my trip to the Mahj ladies and one of them said, "You have a lot of friends."
"Yes, I do. People like me." as an afterthought I added, "I'm a nice person."
We all laughed and one of them said, "Even if you do say so yourself." and we laughed some more.
What do you say to something like that? I like people, generally speaking, and I hope that most people react accordingly to that. I like to think I'm sincere in my appreciation of my friends and my desire to connect people and connect with people.
Anyway. I won one hand last night; the last hand of the night. Before that, I was either well out of it or started out with an excellent hand that went nowhere.
I have a rant on the subject of directions, but I don't have time/interest to set it down right now. I probably will at some point.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/determined.gif) rushed
Current Music: Alice Cooper "Poison"
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February 3rd, 2008
 | 08:45 am - Dreams
( sci-fi/fantasy )
( LARP and what followed )
Also, in breaking news, people are frustrating.
Current Mood: sick
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November 2nd, 2007
| 09:52 am - Strange dream
I dreamt last night about traveling with hoppie and my parents. Hoppie kept nagging me for the paper and I kept explained that I didn't have today's paper, we'd have to wait until we got to my parents house. I only had yesterday's paper. When we did finally get to a paper. I read the lead sports story, didn't believe it and handed it to hoppie. The Yankees resigned Torre to a three year deal. I made hoppie read it again to make sure it wasn't a mistake. Of course the Yankees have already signed Joe Girardi, so it was a silly dream, but, you know, whatever.
Lots of other things happened in the dream, but I only remember flashes of it.
Current Mood: amused
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October 17th, 2007
| 09:59 am - Gumbo tonight!
I kicked off the gumbo before heading off to work this morning....Gumbo tonight!
I had a horrible nightmare ( Dark Lord in the subway )
Would I watch the World Series with Colorado/Cleveland? Well, first, it's not likely to happen. Second, yes, I think I would. At least until Colorado loses a game.
I had other things on my mind, but offhand, can't remember them.
Current Mood: tired
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July 9th, 2007
 | 12:33 pm - betrayed with a kiss
My dream lied to me! In a dream I had I ran into an old classmate, Danny Diamond. And I asked him what he'd been up to and where he was living and he told me he was living in Louisville. But you can't have been, I replied, I'd have known if you were in Louisville. And he sorta shrugged as if to say that was my problem, not his. And I said, (I kid you not), well, this is just a dream, but after I wake up, I'll look you up and we'll talk.
( Danny Diamond )
( Too much baseball? )
And sekretly the lesbians are taking over (http://www.splcenter.org/intel/news/item.jsp?site_area=1&aid=274)
( Another Jewish guy dream, but not with Danny )
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/think.gif) contemplative
Current Music: The Writers Radio - June 29th
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June 14th, 2007
 | 11:34 am - Rambling grumblings
Move is today and apparently I'm stressing.
All I know is spent all last night packing up my...office which changed to a dorm room(?), because apparently even I can't fill a whole dream with packing my office. That's just not that much stuff in there!
And then my brain started adding in backstory about how I wasn't sure where was going after I finished grad school, because I had no job lined up and I was going to have to go back to KY to live with my parents.
Argh.
Packing, btw, took me about 20 minutes this morning. The only things left are the things I want for today: my fan, my calendar, some printouts which I intend to bring home to use tomorrow, the candy bowl, and my phone headset. (and Marsha, but she doesn't get packed, she gets hand-carried home.)
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/confused.gif) confused
Current Music: Billy Joel - We Didn't Start the Fire
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May 10th, 2007
 | 10:21 am - I feel summer creeping in and I'm tired of this town again
Last night I dreamed I got mail from Mary Jane. I'm serious. It's not an allusion to something, or a metaphor (although obviously it is a metaphor because all dream elements are.) It actually wasn't a mail per se, it was a big bundle of mail addressed to me that had been sent to her. They spanned years, and she was fowarding them along. They were in a blue plastic bag. like a large ziplock type bag, And there was a letter from her in from her as well, and a copy of the department newsletter and an explanation of why, even though I signed up for quarterly updates, I'd never gotten any. A policy thing to not send to people outside the university.
I miss her.
Today is damned difficult.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/growf/dwaggins/sad.gif) numb
Current Music: Tom Petty "Last Dance with Mary Jane"
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April 8th, 2007
 | 10:06 am - whose opinion
( Obviously I'm mentally tainted for life )
( Yeah, I wanna frak (dream) )
It's really thrown me off my game though. But I'm going to cowboy us and go downstairs and set up the bookcase like a good girl.
Current Mood: tired
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 | 01:35 am - When last we saw our heroine, she was...
This trip to Louisville was successful.
I should compose a song about it. A list song. Everyone loves those.
These lines would feature:
2 Robins
A MeeMaw a day
Aunts, Uncles, Cousins
Phone calls
Work
2 comprehensive Seders.
Okay, so maybe it's a boring song.
Lets get to it, shall we?
( Seder highlights )
Lets see, rest of the trip: got to play majjong with Robin, Mom, and Meemaw. Meemaw was the big winner (35 cents), but we all Mahjjed at least once, so that was cool.
( Random dreams )
My mother is attempting to downsize her house. I think she and dad are thinking of moving, although the phrase "selling the house" has not been explicitly uttered. I'm torn between wanting to drive down so we can load up the car with things before she gives them away or insisting we fly so we don't have to take everything. Among the things they insisted we take was the three unframed prints from a set of holiday prints they had as a legacy from Uncle Bert. We now have Shabbat, Channukah, and Passover. I dropped them off at the framer's yesterday. They're getting matching frames, brushed pewter with black trim, double mat with the top mat an off-white and the lower mat coloured to compliment the colours in the print.
The framer was delighted with the prints. They were hand-produced, each colour laid down separately. He was just delighted. He recommended I check ebay to see how much similar things were selling for, which I did, but I didn't find anything similar, so you know, that's that.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Watching TiVo with hoppie
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March 9th, 2007
| 03:16 am - Return of the insomniac
Still tired, and yet awake. How frustrating. And my mother wonders why I try to not go to bed before 10. I was exhausted and it was only 9:30, and it was at least 10 before I was asleep anyway, but there's no reasoning with insomnia. It apparently doesn't respond to logic.
Another role-play dream, that's how many in a row? And there was a cat-girl. Also, I found a coat I liked in my dream. Must be cold if I'm dreaming of shopping for winter coats. Also shows how much I hate my "current" one. No point in shopping for one now, though, they don't have any in the stores. I'll have to wait until mid-July or something when it's 98 degrees out and all you can find are winter coats.
Woke up with sense of having not done things I meant to. I thought that might be keeping me awake, so I hastened (by which I mean, I lay in bed thinking "I want to sleep! Please let me sleep!" until I gave up, about 15 minutes later thinking "well maybe if I do this thing...") to check on the status of the things I meant to do. Of course they were done, which is it's own frustrating thing.
I was going to do some work, but then I realized the work I was going to do was very complicated and my brain wasn't up to it. So instead, I shall try to sleep again
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March 7th, 2007
 | 01:49 pm - And the days go by
( Last night's dream )
Saw ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) kyzoku and karnil on Monday. They're doing pretty well. Both enjoying their jobs. That's somewhat rewarding. Maybe this is a frustrated mothering thing, but I love seeing people around me succeed. I know a lot of people don't feel that way and I know some people who only feel like they're succeeding when they know that other people around them are failing. Anyway, it was nice to see them. We're talking about setting up a table-top gaming session (not RPG, I don't think, real games) sometime in April, after Passover and karnil's concert.
( musings that probably shouldn't even be posted to my journal....I'm really just thinking outloud. )
Also, I feel overwhelmed at work which is making it hard to concentrate on it, thus leading to more overwhelming feelings. Need more focus.
Current Mood: tired
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March 6th, 2007
 | 10:25 am - Six of one, half dozen of the other
( I am not afraid meme )
( Finishing thoughts on On The Rails )
( Last Seder thoughts )
Current Mood: contemplative
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February 23rd, 2007
| 12:02 pm - An odd jumble of things
( I need a shot at redemption (dream) )
I'm having a day of ups and downs.
I had to rip out a bunch of stitches because my flower had an extra petal. (stupid flowers)
It took me awhile, but I got myself a new environment set up.
I bought some romance books wicked cheap.
And no writers radio, when I had my heart set on it.
I started off feeling sorta bummed because of the dreams. It's indicative of my larger problem. Sleep doesn't feel restful. When I wake up, I'm tired and unable to return to sleep. I have no idea what to do about it.
( Intercon character spoilers - my characters and initial thoughts )
( HP friday five )
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Billy Joel - Don't Ask Me Why
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