contemplativeGreat Fear Meme!
X if you are afraid of:
[] gay people
[] the dark
[] gay people in the dark
[] being single forever
[X] being a parent
[X] being myself in front of others
[] open spaces
[] closed spaces
[] public speaking
TOTAL: 2
[X] heights
[] cats
[] birds
[] fish
[] ants
[] driving
[X] flying - I have a generalized fear of travelling that stems from my fear of being late. It's not obvious with driving because I have a measure of control. It's obvious with flying and train travel and driving with hoppie.
[] flowers or other plants
[] being touched
[X fire
TOTAL: 3
[] dark water
[] the ocean
[X] failure
[] success
[] thunder/lightning
[] frogs/toads
[] my boy/girlfriend's or ex's dad
[] my boy/girlfriend's or ex's mom
[] mice/rats
[X] jumping from high places
[] snow
[] rain
TOTAL: 2
[] wind
[] cotton balls
[] cemeteries
[] clowns
[] large crowds
[X] crossing bridges
[] death
[] heaven - don't believe in it...
[] being robbed
[] men
[] women
TOTAL: 2
[] having great responsibility
[] doctors
[] tornadoes
[] hurricanes
[] diseases
[] snakes
[] sharks
[] shots
[] Friday the 13th
[] ghosts
TOTAL: 0
[] Halloween
[] school
[] trains or railroads (I've already counted my generalized fear of travelling. I'm not afraid of the vehicles themselves or being in them.)
[] odd numbers
[] even numbers
[X] being alone
[] being blind
[] being deaf
[X] growing up
TOTAL: 2
[] monsters under my bed
[] certain colours
[] certain numbers
[X] 'signs' that something is going to happen - i have known that at least 2 people were going to die or were dyign as it happened. creeepy
[X] creepy noises in the night
[] bee stings
[] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[] blood
[X] someone you love or care about getting hurt
[] someone you love or care about hurting you
[] love
[] spiders
TOTAL: 3
Grand Total = 14
If you get more than 30, you're paranoid.
If you get 21 to 29, you're normal.
If you get 11 to 20, you're pretty normal.
If you get 10 or less, you're fearless.
If you get 0, you're a jerk that thinks you're tough. Everybody fears something.
At one point I was listening to myself with a certain level of detachment and I sounded like a complete tart. I touched briefly on this in my original post on the subject, but I don't know if this is a result of my character or a flaw in my playing, but to my own ears, it sounded like I was flirting with all the men (and possibly some of the women). It's just that pretending people are fascinating and interesting and I want to know them better, coming from a woman, seems like flirting. I guess that's pretty much what I said before.
Anyway, I'd be vaguely interested in trying my hand at a romantic plot should I do something like this again.
I was actually able to blush on command. The wild American compared riding a horse -vs- hearing about riding a horse (or riding in a carriage) to riding a woman -vs- reading about same. I looked away modestly and blushed, I could actually feel my face getting hotter and stammered something. And then he apologized for the coarseness of his language.
I'm insanely proud of that. It was very much in character.
Now my character was a novelist, but also a reporter for the Times looking for a good feature story (which she did not get). I was told to guard my secret zealously lest any potential leaks dry up. So of course, around hour two, I told two people under the strictest confidence. Now as far as I know, that didn't go anywhere at all. At breakfast yesterday when we were recapping AJ's advice, Anita said you had to tell at least three people. Next time I'll try that and see how it goes. Clearly two was the wrong number. 8-)
Also during recap, the charming American said something to me and Miss Evans that has rather stuck in my head. There was an artist at the con who would do fantasy pictures. I had him do a full color of me and hoppie (which isn't ready yet, and yes, you'll be the first to know) and I let hoppie pick the images. Since talking to the American, I want a second one, perhaps something more low-key, like a pencil drawing, of Hoppie teaching me to position and fire a rifle. I haven't totally decided what I picture. Me as a frontier lady and him as a flashy cowboy, something like the American, or more likely, me as a properly attired lady, and him as a military officer, possibly British. Me holding the rifle and him behind me guiding my hands. It sounds dreadfully romantic. Anyway, that's what I'm thinking about.
In my dream last night, I was talking to
oakenguy explaining that I was still unsure about the whole LARP thing (obsessive much?), and I told him that I was really interested in only one game at Intercon H, The Last Seder but based on the description, I didn't really understand what the game was about. What's a story game? We were standing in an incomplete building, all girders, beams and the odd bit of flooring.
And he said, "There's the GM. If you're really curious, why not just ask?" and he pointed to the guy who'd promoed for the Seder at wrap who was literally standing about 10 feet away in front of me talking to someone else.
"Yeah. That's a good idea." I said, with a feeling of "duh? Why didn't I think of that?"
So I went to talk to him. I said, "What's the difference between a character-based game and a story-based game?" and he said, "Ah! I bet I know exactly why you're asking!" and he was going to tell me about it, but we kept getting interrupted.
Then the bell rang and the children who had school there, (in the incomplete building with no ceilings and only the odd bit of flooring) started rushing in, so we had to leave. We wandered around to the bridge, the lot of us, and were walking and talking. One of the other players said that he had a "Delay of school" card he could have played so would have the building longer, but he thought it would be mean to play it. (I agreed privately at the time, but now I think it's far more mean to have it and not play it. I bet the kids would have been thrilled.)
Anyway, then I woke up. And then I thought, you know,
oakenguy, does have a very good idea. (real people get credit for good ideas in my dreams on the theory that if I thought they might have said it, they probably would have. They usually don't get punished for bad ideas, though, because that's just indicative of a flaw in my sub-conscience. It's like how when Jeff Gordon wins, it's because god wanted him to win, but when he loses, it's because he cut a tire, or the other drivers screwed him in some way.) So I wrote to the email address listed on the Intercon H web site. And I got a reply back a few minutes ago. It really does seem interesting, but it's only a 13 player game. It would be wrong of me to take one of those spots, right? I'm sure way more than 13 people think that's an interesting game. Of course, chances are good I might not get in, so perhaps it's not worth worrying about.