Managed to stay pregnant. Went to the Big E (Eastern States Expo). I've been begging Tom to take me for years. Bought a video camera. and a netbook.
Did you keep your new years' resolutions?
Usual boilerplate text about how I don't really make resolutions because each day is a new beginning and a chance to be better today than yesterday. Yadda Yadda.
Did anyone close to you give birth?
My cousin Monica, I guess, if you can call her close. There were some pregnant announcements and some of my fellow infertiles had babies, but really, there were no hold and cuddle moments to contend with in 2010.
Did anyone close to you die?
No one who really rocked my world with news of their death. Or I'm just having a hard time remembering. This was a pretty quiet year.
What was your biggest achievement of the year?
What was your biggest failure?
Again, inability to focus and organize. This is something that I really need to work on and *ahem* focus on.
Did you suffer illness or injury?
Nothing substantive. Boring year. Migraines still under control, and the worst pain I had was the round ligament pain around week 20.
What was the best thing you bought?
I bought lots of cool things this year. I bought a pack'n'play, car seat, video camera, netbook, some fun games for my Nintendo DS including Intellivision Lives.
What countries did you visit?
No ferign countries this year. Or maybe for awhile yet.
What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?
I would like to have a better relationship with some people. And I would like be able to parent my child.
Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Brooke for kicking ass and taking names with weight loss and fitness. All the people who have been supporting me emotionally and materially with this baby thang. Like Elaine and Joan with the crib. Robin with the breast pump and the books (signed no less, not the breast pump, that would be creepy.). Donna. Julie with the receiving blankets. Liz who doesn't even like kids and yet listens to me whine all the time about my stupid pregnancy symptoms. Hoppie, who wouldn't go out and get me pickles, but has gone out to get me pizza and SUBway (not at the same time). Rocker who bought us, and I'm not making this up, a vampire toothed pacifier and a bib that says, "Nom. Nom. Nom." I'm just so delighted with everyone.
Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I'm really not the hating type.
Where did most of your money go?
Medical expenses related to the IF drugs claimed a large chunk of change. Gifts and baby things took up some more. And even with the incredible black Friday sales, I spent a lot on entertainment and (lack of) productivity hardware.
What song will always remind you of 2010?
Whiskey River by Christian Kane. Man, I miss the hard kick of old Kentucky Bourbon.
What do you wish you'd done more of?
No one ever says this, but I will, work.
What do you wish you'd done less of?
Nothing. I had a week off work and I spent it doing nothing but being sick. Very bad.
How will you be spending Christmas?
We spent Christmas with Hoppie's family. Hoppie got to use the video camera for the first time. I wore a shirt that said, "Pregnant at Christmas. All day at the in-laws with NO alcohol. Ho, ho, fricking, ho." VERY cute, if a little annoying. My FIL referred to me as his "disrespectful daughter-in-law." This still cracks me up. My MIL took one look and immediately burst into laughter. Appreciative family is good.
Did you fall in love in 2010?
I fell in love a little bit with myself, something that has been sorely lacking. If I had to spend the rest of my life with me, it wouldn't be so bad, you know?
How many one-night stands?
What was your favourite TV program?
Big Bang Theory
What was the best book you read?
Tough one. Trying to think of what really stands out for me this year. Probably The Paladin of Souls. I reread it a bunch this year because the philosophy is so appealing. I don't think I first read it this year, but this is year I really started to understand it.
What was your greatest musical discovery?
I rediscovered rockabilly
What was your favourite film of this year?
In theatre, I only saw Avatar and Harry Potter and I preferred Harry Potter.
What did you do on your birthday?
I had the day off work and I spent some time shopping and some time gift wrapping for charity. I went with hoppie to buy his new car and got to be the tough guy, which he loves watching. Afterwards we met Rocker and had a fondue. It was a lovely day.
What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I'm not going to dwell on that.
How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Traversing back through the same clothing I wore in 2009 before I lost 50 pounds.
What kept you sane?
Everyone and everything around me.
Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Well, despite being told that Natalie Portman is a lovely person and very sweet, I loathe her for getting pregnant so easily. Particularly given the unhealthy, unnatural lifestyle (nutritionally) she was leading when she got pregnant.
No special fancies this year, though.
What political issue stirred you the most?
Heath care reform.
Who did you miss?
I spent a lot of time missing Gene and Greg. There was so much that's happened this year that I wanted to share with them.
Who was the best new person you met?
Did I meet any new people this year? Let's pick, The Amazing Johnathan. I met him. I liked him. It works.
Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010?
Attitude means nothing. You can have the greatest attitude in the world and it does not predict or guarantee success. The important thing is, regardless of what your attitude is, keep trying. Even if you're trying, convinced in your heart it won't work, the fact that you're still trying, still giving it everything you have, still putting yourself out there, it means something. It might be harder to give it your best effort when you don't fully believe, but sometimes the act of doing, even without feeling, even without hope, is enough to obtain success. Just don't stop trying.
Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?
It's been a long road, getting from there to here.
It's been a long time, but my time is finally near.
I can feel a change in the wind right now,
Nothing's in my way.
And they're not gonna hold me down, no more,
No they're not gonna hold me down.
'cause I've got faith of the heart,
Going where my heart will take me.
I've got faith to believe,
I can do anything.
I've got strength of the soul,
No one's gonna bend or break me.
I can reach any star.
I've got faith. Faith of heart.
It's been a long night, trying to find my way.
And through the darkness, now I finally have my day.
I will see my dream come alive at least.
I will touch the sky.
And they're not gonna hold me down more,
No they're not gonna change my mind.
I've known a wind so cold, and seen the darkest days,
But now the winds I feel; they're only winds of change.
I've been through the fire, I've been through the rain.
But I'll be fine.